Wednesday, March 17, 2010

CD 5 / Day 3

Okay, now I'm worried because there have been no side effects of the annoying kind so far this cycle. I was prepared for the jitters, the night sweats, the general crankiness and craziness that characterized the last two times I was on this medication. However, this time there is nothing. And now I wonder if it's working. For what it's worth, my protocol for this month is 100mg on days 3-7. Sex starts on CD10. Yay. More scheduled intamacy with my husband. I miss spontaniety.

Is there ever a time in this journey when there isn't something niggling at the back of our heads? What if I'm pregnant this time? What if I'm not? Do we want to do another round of treatments? Do we stay on this path or search for another? When do the questions end? Do the end? I know as a step-parent I question everything constantly. I hope that maybe if I ever have one of my own, maybe I won't question as much, though I'm sure Iwill. Probably even more than I do now. We'll see. It's all in God's hands for me.

4 comments:

Samantha said...

My provera isn't even doing anything this go around... maybe the pharmacies are messing with us. I sure hope not! I hope this is the month for you!

womb for improvement said...

I had varying symptoms with Clomid and it didn't seem to change the outcome much. In fact my first cycle when I felt absolutely no different at all, was when i responded the best, (didn't have the outcome I wanted but nethertheless the drugs worked).

I've been a bit behind on my blog reading, but sorry to hear about your Mum.

Heather said...

Deep breaths...

I know it's so not fun (you know, the unspontaneousness of it all), but I have good feelings.

Everything is crossed! Prayers are up. xoxoxo

Kristin said...

Wishing you lots of luck with this cycle. Waiting and wondering is so hard.

~ICLW #31