Thursday, December 17, 2009

Holiday baby? Maybe...

We will find out if this last unmedicated cycle works right around the holidays. Funny, 2 years ago it was around the holidays that we found out about and lost our only pregnancy. I have that little niggle of hope again. Why, I don't know. It's not like we have any real proof of ovulation. It's not like we really even tried this month. But I know the signs and we did hit in the right time period. But I can't really think that after 2.5 years a miracle is going to occur this last cycle with no real help. That would be too ironic and unlikely. So I'm sitting here enjoying a glass of soda (even though I'd rather have wine), remembering the child that was here for only a few weeks and that no one knew about other than its father and I. We never got the chance to announce the happy news. We barely had time to adjust to it ourselves. Maybe we will get lucky. Maybe a miracle will occur. After all, it is the season for it. Christmas is always looked at as a time for miracles here at my house. It's all that is on my Christmas list this year. A child for next Christmas.

Happy holidays to all of you out there in blog land. May you all receive your own holiday wishes. I'll see you next year.

6 comments:

jill said...

I love the idea of a christmas miracle! I hope you get it :)

Happy holidays!

projectkjetil said...

Here from LFCW to say that I hope you get good news this year. Having gone through bad news at holiday time last year, I know that it leaves a terrible mark. May this season be the beginning of a great story for you.

Lollipop Goldstein said...

Remembering with you today, and holding hope that you get good news soon.

Heather said...

Fingers and toes crossed.

Anonymous said...

I second Jill's sentiment. I hope all goes well for you. As I'm rather late in coming to your blog, I just wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss.

Cheers,Sarah

Erika said...

I'm hoping for a wonderful Christmas miracle for you! Good luck making a decision for moving forward if it comes to that.