I'm not dead, I swear

It's odd what happens when you step away from writing on something like this, even when it's unintentional like always seems to happen to me.  At first it's just a week and a week isn't a big deal.  Then two weeks, then a month.  Suddenly you realize it's been since November and now it's the middle of April and you've been silent, living in your own little world and not letting out the things in your mind.

That's been me the last few months.  Since deciding not to continue with treatments, I've been dealing with a whole host of emotions, few of them happy.  It's not an easy road and coming to terms with the decision has been hard and continues to be hard.  Infertility, it's not for the faint of heart.  Each day brings its own challenges and its rewards.

For now, I am still here and I am coming back.  In fact, I'll be back as part of the Barren Bitches Book Club reviewing Lori's book.  If you haven't joined yet, you should. It's been an enlightening read for me so far and I am looking forward to the discussion that it will bring about.