It came on Saturday

And I'm out for another month. As much as I had a feeling this wasn't going to be the month, I still let that little spark of hope creep in and now I wait another month. However, speaking of hope, go give Tara some love. She's going in for her beta tomorrow and is spotting today. Send love and prayers her way that it's just implantation spotting and that there will be a baby at the end of her journey.

Ugh again

Well, temperatures are dropping. Nothing has started yet, but it's not looking good. I'm still not giving up hope until AF arrives, but even the hope is starting to dwindle for this cycle. DH said that he doesn't think I'm broklen and all we need is time and less stress in our lives. I appreciate his words and I know they come from his heart. I just wish I knew for sure that there wasn't something wrong with me. But our insurance won't even cover testing and I'm beginning to think that I may have to find a new practice that will fight for me and actually test me. I need to know what's wrong. I need to know if I'm capable of having a child and right now I just don't know.

Weekend in

I spent a nice weekend in this weekend. Even though it was nice outside, well kinda nice outside, DH and I spent a romantic weekend at our house. We're in the 2WW now. Fertility friend pinned my O date 2 days earlier than expected again, but we're covered so now we wait. Who's here with me now?

Octuplets? By IVF?!?

What was this woman thinking? I had at first thought it was an IUI that went slightly awry. Or possibly a decision to chance it after doctors finding too many follicles to do an IUI. But to find out that not only did she willing get implanted with enough embryos to have octuplets, but that she has 6 more at home? And that all are the product of IVF and that she has no job, lives with her mother, and there is no father in the picture? She just wanted to be able to make money off of her new babies? There is something very wrong with this picture. Either the woman is very disturbed or the doctor should have his license revoked, or more likely both.

I wasn't going to post about this. Others have spoken on this subject more eloquently that I am able to do. however, the more I find out about this woman, the more sick I feel in my heart. I feel horrible for those poor children.

I hope that no doctor will ever work with her so that she can have more children. The very act of being inplanted with 8 embryos has set back understanding for so many IVFers. It just a sad sad day when a doctor would endanger their patient's life in such a manner. The health risks from carrying so many babies is horrible for both the mother and the babies.

I have more that I could rant about on this subject, but it would take days to say it all. I just hope that the babies and the other children will be okay.

CD2

Confirmation of no pregnancy was received yesterday when I got home from work. Blah. Today is CD2 and in another 10 days, I'm jumping my husband. If there isn't another pregnancy, even one that fails in 3 months, I'm calling the doctor and insisting they test me. I'm not even sure I can wait 3 months at this point. We threw out the birth control 18 months ago. We've had 1 pregnancy that made it to 6w2d. There was a possible chemical pregnancy, but we aren't really sure that it was. It's frustrating and demoralizing and is teaching me more patience than ever. I just have to have faith in God, but at times it's so very hard. I know that everything occurs for a reason and that everything happens in its own time, but sometimes I'd really like to have a crystal ball to see when it happens.

The fortune cookie?

It doesn't appear it was for me. Instead dear frinds of mine, C&B have found out after 2 years of IUI's that have failed and running out of insurance money that they are expecting their first, made the old-fashioned way. They had started on a journey to adopt and never expected to have a pregnancy. I wish them the best of luck and hope that their little bean sticks and that they deliver a healthy baby in September. Stick baby, stick!

Ovulation pinned!!

I am 4 DPO! The slow rise was recognized and ovulation has been pinned on Monday the 12th. It's always nice to have confirmation of things already known, right?